Oh yeah... it's because I'm forced to get up BETWEEN 5:30 AND 6 EVERY WEEKDAY, a few minutes after 6 if I'm lucky (if I oversleep my alarm), and endure 6 1/2 hours of school plus after school stuff when all I really want to do is SLEEP!!
Still, it makes it kinda hard to be tired Sunday nights, and then I can't get to bed until it's late, starting the whole sleep-deprivation cycle over.
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Yesterday was FUN... instead of going to a movie, we went skating. I hadn't been in forever and neither had anyone else that went. There were 7 of us, all band people. We had a great time.
On the bus to the game we pissed off the cheerleaders... when I heard on Friday that we'd be riding down with them, I was like, "...that's NOT the best idea.." Before we left the parking lot, someone did this weird annoying little laugh thing, and the second time he did it one of the cheerleaders' (Julia's) boyfriend, who's a trainer or something, was like, "Shut up!" And Collin yelled back, "You shut up!" and we were all like, "He could kick your ass..." We didn't say it that loudly though. And I'm pretty sure all of them were pissed at us the whole time.
It's sad though, cause I used to be best friends with Julia. We've known each other since I was 6 months old, and we used to hang out ALL the time. It's not like we hate each other now, we don't even dislike each other. We're still pretty much friends, but we hang out with NONE of the same people and we don't talk to each other that much. She went to the Catholic school until high school, but in middle school she started hanging out with people from my school that I didn't dislike, but they were kind of the "popular" kids and I wasn't. It really wasn't as clique-y as it might sound, and they were never mean to me. But if you've ever lost a friend that way, that shit is NOT fun. There was a period in eighth grade when I cried every night for weeks about it. She was on our middle school track team and she would never hang out with me at practices, always with her other friends. I don't think she was avoiding me and I know she wasn't trying to make me feel left out. But it hurt because we used to be SO close, and now it was like she didn't want to be my friend anymore. I've always found that people don't really gravitate towards me, it's usually me that has to take the initiative..
Ugh. Well, at least I have stable friendships, and I'm becoming closer to a group of people who I really like.
We have to write a Goals Essay that is required for graduation. The topic is: "Who Are You, Where Are You Going, and How Are You Going to Get There?" Everyone is complaining about it, but I'm definitely not as upset as most people. I would much rather write an essay about who I am than about most other topics. And I've made up my mind that I'm not going to B.S. my way though this one, I'm actually going to try my 100% best and make it really good. Essay writing comes naturally to me, and I usually don't have to try that hard to get good grades on them. I have to TRY, but definitely not my best. But this one, I AM going to try, and I'm going to be a perfectionist about it. I've already got a pretty good opening paragraph.
Wellll, I better at least attempt to sleep if I want to have any amount of fun tomorrow. :/ Good night!
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